crazy moment

act emo









L.O.V.E pose!!!



We are the 4 stalkers!







infinite!





wooohoooo!!!

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Today not sure is what wind blow us being crazy at Promenade! After the Chingay practice, we all just crazy to photo shoot!


muahahaha, another photo shoot

Jonathan ya Jonathan, why your look always so clear and appear in my mind? recently the moment when i wake up, your face in my mind

那天在SINGAPORE FLYER 那儿写的2012年愿望， 我还真的是乱写一通啊！希望在综艺大游行时真的身上天然后远望实现！





再来一个大合照！

today my friends treat me eat cheese pizza!!!! omg...damn nice~~~

but im on diet eh~~~~pls

going to be 2012 soon!!! i wanna to change to a different look!!! of course my mind also should change to be different...

for example, should not only focus on to get in a relationship
should more focus on friends and study
should rest more
should improve more
should become more pretty
should become more awesome!

let all of the guys know im good at a lot of things!!!
it is ur loss if u don't want me!

being 20 years old, should try to realize all of the awesome dream~ i should enjoy more!

CHILL, dont emo because of relationship problem! look forward baby
even there no any better guy can beside you la ~~~ but, single is awesome too...

the first lesson today after we broken up...

you still like totally not dare to near me, even not dare to talk to me!

this is what you so called "best friends" ?

you even not dare to face me!

my heart is still pain ...how about you?

u are look like normal....other than you trying escape from me :(

no matter how much i laugh....after saw you leave me away...all of the emotional starting burst out!

今天我想你了


很难过的想

为什么你没有把我安排在你未来的计划？

今天去看了[那些年]

真的很有趣！！！


看着看着我却因为看见了一个语录而流下了我流不出的眼泪

[戀愛最美好的，就是曖昧的時候]


早知道我就让你追我久一点~

那样你就会很努力

努力的想靠近我，努力的想了解我

而我，会很享受这样的一份爱

分手了

因为你认为没有办法给我承诺

因为你想过着到处旅游的生活

因为你的未来计划是不想结婚

因为你真的会去实现

所以你说，做好朋友

我尊重你的想法，因为一段感情是要两方的决定要一至

可是你和我看见的是不一样的天空

虽然你对我有感觉，但还是选择了放弃



你不后悔吗？

最近的我很不好受

我真的有那么差吗？

我是不是又被劈腿了？

是不是这段恋情不能过3个月？

我真的有那么好玩吗？


如果想分手为什么不直接说？

还是是我想太多？

我只知道，你很少陪我，甚至没有机会和你好好谈

要我怎么解决我心中的不安和疑惑？

怎么办？

好伤心，当我看见别的女生光明正大的在你的主页写着“i love u”
我几乎崩溃！发生什么事了！

11.11.2011

多希望今天跟我过的人是你；

多希望虽然在还有其他人时，你也能看我多一眼，跟我说下话；

多希望你能像那天一样送我回家，给我个抱抱；

多希望我们想第一次约会一样，那个超体贴的你；

多希望我能知道我在你心里的地位；

更希望你能让我更了解你，

因为我对你是认真的！

yam cha go go go!

today yam cha with jing hong!!!! it is a meaningful moment to me!

we have a lot of things gonna to share! the pass story...so miss our secondary school life and friends! also talking about our future~~~~ and gossip of our boyfriend!!! muahahahaha

i saw she so happiness i also happy~ i hope i also can always feel the happiness~~~

今天约会去了！
他还很浪漫的送我花！！！！
今天真的有很多第一次的浪漫！！！

A story

Boy: I broke up with her.
His Best Friend: What happened?
Boy: She’s just too much for me.
His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?
Boy: Well,...for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes
locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl
under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..
Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..
Boy: But..Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..
Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her.
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I
see..
Boy: Well, she..
His Best Friend:You broke up with her
because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s
broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?
Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?
His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S
what happened..

tomorrow is my grading day!!!! i hope i can pass >< pray hard!!!! this time i do not have so much confidence sia ~~~~ hope i can pass!!!

today i went ton shop!!!! omg~ all the shirts are cheaper than Msia!!! crazy for shopping!!!
i never bring enough money so i only bough 2 shirts and 1 necklace!!! the necklace quite cheap sia..only $5!!!!!

why nene never come SG? some more all the wedding shirt only sell $15-29.90!!!! omg!!!!!
hahahahaa~ a bit crazy liao!

BITCH'S CONVERSATION

should i regret what i read?

yea..I read the conversation...it is a nice story to me
It also prove that I am Right!

Let me see how long you still can acting in front of me or your friends
No need to explain too much, let's see....

Let's see what are the moral both of you bitch and jerk asshole have!

What men should know:

A woman who truly loves you will be angry at you for so many things,but will stick around

Maybe you don't know......

nasi lemak 2.0

finally watched nasi lemak!damn funny!!! how long i never ever laugh like hell?

thank for sher lyn hang out together with me! otherwise i think i have really go and watch alone which is the thing i haven try~

Today just realize something..we meet at the same timing and the same place as HIM but only the people who i'm waiting is different~

anyway~ today got a lot of offer !!!!! but i never see any shirt i like ehhh....never mind..waiting for next time

people cry, not because they are weak;
It is because they have been strong for too long...

what am i doing now?
i wanna to kill myself?

i already promise myself should not see the profile and status anymore, it just make me heart pain and all of the effort are gone!

So, i should be strict to myself...should not spend too long time!
He live in the world without you; you should not stay under the sky all of about him anymore, understand?

if next time still look at his profile or status, you should use the pen knife to punish yourself!!!!!

很喜欢这段词

曾經愛過這樣一個男人 他說我是世上最美的女人 我為他保留著那一份天真 關上愛別人的門 也是這個被我深愛的男人 把我變成世上最笨的女人 他說的每句話我都會當真


你要的爱太完美，我永远学不会！

我相信我已经快要
快要把你忘掉
跟寂寞 再合好

我相信我已经快要
是真的我快要
快要可以微笑
去面对 下一个拥抱

today kena bully loh! He see my face blur blur then wanna bully me! but even my face look like blur but my brain ok?

tomorrow cannot kena bully again! must act a smart face ><

tomrrow have to open the cashier alone sia....see how i die liao~

i observe some of the westen guys very cute! they can keep saying thank you to you or keep apologize to you even is a small case!hahahahahahha~~~ I want a Ang Mo boyfriend!!! damn cute ^^

bully me siol

need like this or not? customer bully me! i am still learning wat~ you see i look like blur than wanna bully me? i tell you, my face look like blur but i am blur-ing ok? i know wat am i doing hooo!!!!

Siao a, tomorrow die a..have to start to open the cahsier alone =='
need like this to treat me or not ? how could i survive ?

today i observe some of the western guys so funny!just because of small case and then their reaction can so big and keep apolo

cashier 1st day experience!

today 1st day working! i damn scare sia!lucky im still learning no need really to touch the money >< but quite lucky because my leader willing to teach me things :)some more, Suntec City there got a lot of handsome sia~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ i faint liao~hahahahahahahha!!! all the ang mo so handsome!i wanna a ang mo handsome!!!! all the office guys are so handsome!!! i think they are most of the women's target xD enjoying to see handsome while working~ no bad la !

i got a feeling that one of the best men i meet on cousin's wedding like interesting on me eh ==' It remind me, how we meet before..also is because of a CHANCE to got to different place and meet different people...and start interesting that person, continue like and activate love the person....The same story going to happen again???

Pahang (Kemayan)

cousin's wedding at Pahang really is a nice experience for me...

Guys are damn playboy sia ==' They can be a good boyfriend in front of their gf but after their gf leave, then asking my contact number! WTF....

Some more i met a aberrant...keep disiao me! i remember my hands were shivering when he say and did some things to me! it is a long story to me >< i hope i will not meet him anymore in Singapore！ because he also working over there! at Kallang!!!

I think the only fun part is playing with Groom and the best men! xD they all are blur blur best men and make the bridegroom have to give us "ang Bao" MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!in the end of the day, got 1 best men become my friend sia == ...Lol

Busy Until forget you and me

Busy busy busy~ training train 9hr yesterday ><
I 1st time kena throw to the mid air.....cheer leading's flyer is not so easy siol~
...
body is no more energy!!!
Tomorrow training also...after this have to go Pahang!!!waaaa.....time table is full!!!
I like such Busy :) I Hope i can busy until forget every things...including the past xD

Gambatehyooooo~

Her Wedding

Finally, she had done her dream which is marry with her lover!!! From her face, i really saw her smile with happiness!!! I also want ><

Today, I give her my bless without you...
Before, we said that wanna attend her wedding together but in the end it only leave me ...
but i bring along with the key necklace and blessing her ~

Wish her happy marry life!
Suddenly i also hope i can find my Mr.Right and get marry soon~ now only leave me and another 2 cousins have not marry yet! Wish she will be the next person~ MUAHAHAHAHA~ then my Ang Bao can increase soon!

meaningful days

this 2 days are so meaningful and busy to me!!!! training for whole day because i going to have performance and also grading after the holidays :) so is time to practice now...i am so enjoying the training time because it wont make me think too much...

today also went out with nene and jason...some more chat with x.dad :) there is lot of things and craps we chat together...i also have personal chat with x.dad...exchange our experience :D I know, your all are right...have to remove something from here..i also trying ^^ .SEE!!! i got listen to you guys hooooo~~~~~~~Visit friends is so enjoying..i really feel happy~ a lot of story recall back such as our school life...and imagine our future boyfriend~ our criteria~ and many!!!!


After that, we went for sing K~ some of the songs i really really like it...because it singing my story and my feel out...i also choose some of the songs u sing for me before..maybe i too miss ur voice and the memory when you sing for me...it so sweet...

i sing until almost loss my voice :)but is this 爽!!!!
Dear Friends, next time must go again together!!!


I hope..everyday also can so busy and meaningful....it make me feel better!
Hope that, i really can let it go before u find a new girl, otherwise i think i will going to be mad :)

My cousin is going to marry this week... suddenly fell like...why they always like to early to marry? is it must marry before 25 years old just is a standard one? They are so lucky they found their Mr.Right....hahaha, where is my Mr.Right leh? How long i have to wait? lyric of “遇见 ” is exactly what i think now :)

A morning's feeling I have

I wish falling in love had traffic lights, so that I would know if I should: Go for it, slow down, or just stop; although I not willing to stop also have to stop :)

I don't why this morning pop out lot of feelings when i just open my eyes look at the ceiling...
I feel happy, just because you saw me~
i feel happy, just because saw your number show on the screen yesterday...
how long i never look at the screen and smile like a silly?
If, you also have the same feeling gai you duo hao....


After that, your look is so fresh and refreshing in my mind...
The feeling when holding hand; the feeling of hug;the feeling of walk together;the feeling of dating, the feeling of heartbeat increase when meeting you & you family for the first time; the feeling of kiss; the feeling of happiness; the feeling sleep on your shoulder; the feeling of just look at your face; the feeling of when you encourage me ...a lot a lot~
all of these feelings is starting not fresh anymore...it so blur to me...i worry i'll totally forgot the feeling...
If, feelings can keep in a bottle gai you duo hao...So, we wont loss it :)

how much effort i should put in order to rub away you from my heart and my mind???
If, there is a special eraser for me to rub gai you duo hao...

what happen!?what happen!? my mind so blank now...i feel something bad..it already happen behind me! but i not sure what is that!? im waiting for the answer....or i should not know? because it maybe hurt me

no comment for the TIME

sometimes i feel the time pass so fast because like a lot of things i haven done and not do very well, something have not done yet as well.

However, sometimes i feel that the time pass so slow...like just realize that today broken 4 months ago but i feel like is already 4 years ago...always keep myself busy at all time ,it just 4 month ago!? some more still can thinking other things i should not think and feel emo~
sometimes also wondering that, what if we meet again after 10 years?hahaha...like idiot hooo?

grandma also pass away 4 months ago...sometimes i also will miss her...sometimes also still asking the same questions... "why it could happen in the same month?" , you will never know how is the feeling when you lose the 2 people dearly love you and you have to accept the fact....Anyway, i able to accept the fact but i think the only cannot accept is the feeling, I think...

finally the 1st semester ended and no more stress :) (temporary) but how i going to make use of my time?I know there is different with before, i will have extra time during holidays...some more i haven found any part time job yet~ i hope i really have more encourage to "pass" this holidays!hope that, i really really can stand up again by using to be with my whole group of friends...only be with them i just really feel at least this is my part of life, the distance between me and "smile" is not so far.....

feel stress wor ~

HUUUUH.... recently feel a bit stess :( before still got another way to release my stress and make me have " driving force" to continue my test ...now is every things gone! no more force to push me up....aiyoyo ~ i must find another way to release my stress and my new driving force because no one can help me again....

fucking post i saw today!

why some of the girl is damn disgusting? how old already? still post such thing on the wall? want to show off how good are you are with XXX !? damn it ==' it just make me think that your attitude got problem! i wish you screwd by DOG!!!! NO, even dog see you also antipathydisfavour on you!!!! your boyfriend really is a BLIND~~~

TELL ME WHY

tell me why i still care about the past?!
tell me why still silent and doing something should not do!?
tell me why i have to like that!?
tell me why i want to lie you!?
tell me why i still cannot release myself from you!?
tell me why my heart still feeling pain when recall back!?
tell me why i thought that i already forgot but seems like is not!?
tell me why what the hell i think are already wrong!?

i still naughty...because i miss you again....sometimes still guessing that what are you doing now~

I still is soosoo and sometimes back to before that life....still is the girl who will not get the heart of the guy she love/like ...yeah...all this are fate...always bad luck ~hahahaha~

I belive that i can live without you...
I can di better....

heng....recently you keep go clubbing huh...show ur ham sap attitude ..it very obvious loh!

sudden feeling...

1.sudden miss you again...
2.sudden hope can see ur post on my wall...
3.sudden wish that u will find me...
4.sudden hope that u can concern about me sometimes...
5.sudden hope that u will think about me at least sometimes...
6.sudden wish i can hug u and couple again in dream and never wake up anymore...

haizzzz

a very boring sunday...
a very miss you sunday...
a very stupid soosoo....thinking somehing impossible things...you should know what is that....

when i just can dun mind? when i just can do it? im dying, honey....can u you help me...make me feel better /.\

i just wanna continue our story..happiness story...but happiness just like bubbles gone .... i cant just like other poeple? to have a boyfriend really will love me forever? and then to have a happiness wedding....happiness family xD

that day dream u holding my hand ..it is not the 1st time dream that...i think i was SICK, too miss the feeling when u holding my hand...

remember when u just went back from NS camp...
remember that u walked beside me...
remember that i was thinking when u just want to hold my hand xD...
remember that i was thinking that why not i hold ur hand if u not dare to do it!
remember that u sudden and finally HOLD MY HAND!!!
remember that the very 1st feeling is the electric shock ran over my hand which you are holding xD
i feel good when u are holding my hand~

maybe it is just a nothing to you but i very treasure those memories...not all the things must write out just means i remember...all of the things still remember in my heart...when i really really miss you...just take out some memories to share ^^

hahahahaha...[memories recall end for today]

u see my result so scukssss!!!! the consequence never did homework properly~~~ congratulation me!!! damn slack for this 4 weeks...since we broken up ...seriously, without ur encourage i really become weaker and slack @.@ yuan lai i study also need you...hmmmm...you are already a part of my life!!! WTH~ but u are not my husband yet leh~~~

I proud that im so honest!!!

im so honest today!!! u know why? because i still never cheat you about my feeling i have~~~ at least i dare to say, i still love you! i still cannot forgot you!!!

but then i almost burst out to ask you is that possible to restart...but lucky i never ask...becoz the answer from you maybe hurt me again....i think i will never forgot you...becoz i cant forgot the memories we have!!!

haiz....T.T if i can rub away all the things about you i will be easy... sudden feel i so "zhuan yi" xD hahahahah~~

2 more days...we are already broke up 1 months...but then i still cannot dun want miss you!!! i even can dream about of you continueos 3 days!!! WTH....i think i really cannot forgot all the things...

actually u dunno what i did when i walking to school =='and i just realise that recently...actually when i walking to school i was thinking about our sweet sweet memories....that why i can feel happy for every morning walked to school...but then recently is feel sad for every morning...sometimes even don't have energy to walk and almost fall down >.< embarasing !!!

after we broke up it really have other boy boy woo me or fancy me...but then i cannot find the similiar zz among all of them..../.\ so sad... i hope i can meet zz 2 ~~
that people i can feel he really love me so much before...

Are you still coming here?

are u still remember me? how long u din come here anymore? i remember that the reason i want to create my blog is because of you...because i want to let you know something i would not or impossible direct to tell you ...but then...how about now? are u still coming here???

i also remember that..when u in NS, if u rest u will call me...especially when u using public phone to call me...i can feel that u are so miss me and concern me...
how about now? yaa, maybe u what also cant remember...

maybe you even cant remember what u done for me and i done for you before...maybe even u have photo also cant remember anymore....

so, are you going to abandon this blog? are you at least sometimes still want to come here? can you let me know ur answer???

start finding the Key

dar dar...today enjoy all the memories we have before...yaaa, i should not so greedy because what i have before is enough for me...i should feel happy that you treat me so good before, you use ur love to love me before.. and also you worry me~ all the happiness things i will keep into my deep deep mind and try to dun want recall after TODAY!

today have wedding show...forgive me i imagine that im wearing the wedding dress because of you :) just my imagination....

i know it might be suffer for me to start cleaning my heart...but i believe i can do it, because i already enjoy the dream you given me so i should WAKE UP now! like Cinderella~ xD hahahahhaha

hope we can be best friend...any problem u maybe can find me again, like the way u care about me also ^^

it still lucky babe, because we are break up in peace!!!! not so many couple can be like this right?

yeap...soosoo...u are a LUCKY girl!!! now the task is to find the key and open my heart let you move out >.< so i can clean my house~ clean the dush in my heart!!!!
but..you always is my NO.1 dar dar and babe....never change.......

impossible or possible!!??

we are possible or impossible to couple back? you say..it don't have a correct answer...

so i should make a decisous with my own! i should not like this already because one day you will have new gf also...i need to find the key to open my heart and let u go out from my heart! yes, i will try my hard to find the key and open the door!!!

u treat me really like a freind...you 1st time ask me go lim teh....this question make me really realise that before we are couple and now we just a freind.....a very good lim teh invitation, babe...

today my cousin come and discuss about wedding things...only my brain thinking about what if we also going to marry? what if you suddenly appear in front of me? yaaa...i know all these are impossible...i just haven awake ><'

why when i start to rely on you but you start to leave me away? i need to learn back how to live my own for every single day! i need to ...keep all our memories and clean up the heart you broke ....

it is my 2nd time heart break...but is better this time...at least you still so gentlemen to me ..i feel la /.\

soosoo: wake up now!

all are because i think too much?

u allow me to continue call u dar dar ..honey..
u allow me to text message for you when i miss ...
u allow me to have ur new picture to miss you...

ur a little bit concern or worry will make me think maybe we still have chance...
ur little humour to me make feel we still have future...
ur kiss and hug make me feel like u still love me....

yeah...because i still love you so i will think too much that we still have chance to couple back...maybe i too sensitive..maybe i too stupid...maybe i so thick face...maybe i....not really want to face the truth we have now!

ur gentle make me not willing to find the nxt guy...because u always are the BEST in my deep deep heart....when i should wake up? or ..i no need to wake up FOREVER?
i keep dream about you recently...is about how we meet and dating together...i so hope i will not wake from this dream forever...

yes, this is the way how stupid I am...should i waiting for a CHANCE????

i dream you again...

hey....darling...you come to my dream again...in the dream u seems like just come back from certain place and the 1st people u want to meet is me :) in the dream, we still like couple, we chat a lot...i feel comfortable ..i feel ur love in the dream...this time i din shock untill wake up edi...hahahahaha...this time is i hope i wont't wake up from that dream FOREVER....at least you still love me in the dream...

if now we still couple...i think u are the 1st person i will sms you to say "I'm Back,got miss me?"
if now we still couple...i think we are chating now...

if now we still couple...i think i will text messege to you when concern about you...
if now we still couple...i think i will ask you wait for me because i need to bath...

if now we still couple...i think i still can get a hug hug from you...
if now we still couple...i think i no need remember that when i mention you need to add a "ex" in front of boyfriend because i always forgot to add "ex"....

if now we still couple...i think i can continue to see one of my freind i meet today her happy expression and to say: we already couple so long...so nice! keep continue it~

Today I....

today i eat chicken rice.....it make me remind of you
today i went to the sport complex and beside is gym...make me imagine ur look during gyming...

today i very late jz dare to open FB...because i worry i too miss you...
today i very hard working to make myself very busy and very late just went home...
today i...change my msn's name as WHITE...because u are BLACK...

today i...imagine a picture if u able to come back to my side again
today i thinking that i will change my temper if u still love me...

today i go take a look of ur profile...u are living in a world without me anymore...
today i...have no energy to truly smile again!

3rd day break up...

a lot of things make me remind of YOU...especially food....i think becoz before we always eat eat eat and we have many sameness to the food xD

i feel comfortable and slighly happy becoz...u give me a little bit gentle to me last nite...i know that is not called LOVE....but it enough for me :) i feel better....somemore u say my name's in ur contact list still is DEAR..i feel happy also...becoz at least u are not totally going to forget me....i hope...at least still can maintain like this..if we cant couple back anymore!

30.4.11 end of relationship and start with friendship

how would i say? i have no comment speechless....this is ur desicions but luckly we still are friends....maybe not too bad....

very first time i can cried untill headach...but after crying i think i will be better....just now look back for all of the photo we have...from trip photo..then we become couple...many friends are happy that we become couple...then we have many photo after we dating...1st time u cook for me photo...

unfortutenally, all of this now is just a memory for me and you...1 years 3 months and 14 days relationship END!!! how i can start? i do i live without you...

i think i will miss you..to miss the feeling when inside ur hug...to miss the feeling i looking at you..to miss the feeling u are kissing me..to miss a lot a lot..........


thank you for all of our friends always blessing us before ^^ but ...this is our ended..maybe 1 day we will couple back? maybe not....its hard to say.... dont worry,i feel happiness before..yes...really happiness...i should not so greedy right?
zz treat me already very good..at least he quite sayang me ..sayang untill some of girl also feel jealous, sweet untill some of girl jealous...hahhaha...

you are always my ah jack dar dar...i will continue to call u dar dar in my heart..FOREVER...

i miss you

how are you?
recently how? your working problem already solve?
have u hit ur target?
recently u seems like very late just online...
i very miss you!
hmmm....i hope we can back to sweet sweet before...i worry that i cant focus for my test...i need ur support to me..like before the way u encourage me...i need u....i cant loss anyone i love the most again....

i really dun want loss any things again (T.T)...hug hug you~

The words i said before " Waiting For You"

ONE sentences, " im waiting for you" need a lot of courage jz can say it out...it need more encourage to voice out compare with to say "i LOVE u".....not every bf or gf willing spend their time waiting for u and not all of the people worthy to let you waiting for......

the sentences " im waiting for you" including unlimited love,endure,helpless and hope!

my dear jack, this is the 1st time i spend so much courage to you...i dun want u feel sorry to me...i jz want we can keep continue...chat together, play together...go to trip together, talk many nonsense together...

i can let u go to find ur next happiness....but i want u measure that...your new relationship is a long term relationship :)

but i will CURSE you wont meet any other girls who will make you feel like wants love her more than me!!! dun forget babe, im EVIL SOOSOO....naugthy than you! hey hey~

today....i bring my Panda eyes go to school!!! xD hahahahhaha....when looking at mirror get a shock ~

today u working till 11pm huh..i think i cannot wait till so late or i will dizzy ya...

i hope still can sudden remember me today....

waiting

maybe i start to forgot what is happy and happiness...
maybe i start to close with tears, sad and heart pain...
since "i lost u"

how can i find back? how could i help u find back ur missing feeling?
why not u can't understand that becoz of love we just will argue? it's too late to let u know....

when i saw couple they stick together...i will think that such happiness and sweet moment i have before!but now gone...just becoz of last time argue...
i really cant accept that our relationship able to be so brittle! OMG... the pray i done before not occur!?

it that so easy to find back the feeling?i dun think so...i only know i willing to give u times and waiting for u...

i'm waiting u turn ur head back and look at me...
i'm waiting u to hold my hands tight again...
i'm waiting u use ur love to hug and kiss me...
i'm waiting u to tell me: dear, i love you so much!
i'm waiting u to worry me again and again...
i'm waiting u smile in front of phone when we sms...
i'm waiting u to say a lot of things to me...let me know more about u...
i'm waiting u when u and me online we still can have a chat..if we can webcame again we will do weird weird action for each other....
i'm waiting u watch ghost movie together with me so u will hug me tight and see how many popcorn throw in the cinema after the movie ended...
i'm waiting u enjoy the spicy chickenchop with me...
i'm waiting u help me find back my happiness....

yes, im still waiting....

miss and missing

i miss the way we chat about our future plan...u say u will help me take care BB and clean the house after working..

i miss the way when i at SG, u can miss me untill text message to me...say how much u miss me..i will smile to the phone

i miss the way u always holding my hand

i miss the way when we chat on msn.. hug hug , fly kiss...

i miss the way u try to spend more time accompany me even u feel tired and chat with me just becoz i going back SG soon...

i miss that u will automatic find me if i din find on that day...

i miss the way u worry me...

i miss the phone ring and show ur contact number...

i miss the place we meet when we still not couple yet...

i miss the confidence u have for we will couple, sweet sweet love and love forever

i miss ur mole ..so that u can hide ur handsome and then i no need too worry that other girls come can tackle u...or u tackle them...

i miss the day i beside u to cellebrate ur birthday, my birthday, Arpil fool...

i miss the day when we at the same trip.....

i missing u ............but now i know u may say...MAYBE SOMETIMES u just will miss me~

bye, grandma :)

bye bye grandma, rest in peace!
i hope in ur next life able to have filial piety....
i think one of my dream will never come true that is after i buy a house then can live together with you :)

today my eyelips keep jumping, i was thinking that wat will happen today...then i get a call from home saying that u are already pass away...when 4pm

recently i jz recall back what u did to me...touch my hair and sayang me...ask me want study hard...ask me want helping mom clean the things...

recently u are become weaker and more weaker...last time i fed u eat the fish porrige u can eat until sleeping! you are scaring me and mom that u are already pass away......but now u are really leave from this world!

it so fast to me...becoz today i just asking about how to take the Compassionate leave ..then u really pass away!actually i feel a bit peaceful when heard u pass away...becoz u are not suffering anymore..u no need live at that kind of fucking place! no need suffering that how the people treat u not nice! you no need angry that u cannot move!u not feel sad that most of ur son dun want u...u will realif from all of the suffering of your life! it is good for u , i think...

but...i also feel not bear to let u leave from this world...becoz u are my grandma ...a very very good grandma :)pls remember my boyfriend, ah jack also! and blessing us becoz he is a good guy to me...i think he will like you...very sayang me, will worry me..and take care me like how u take care of ur grandchild before :)

i love u...i dunno how to say out before,i hope ur soul can read my heart

15th months~

every things to be alright i think...im so happy now....my zz is back ...but i found out there is soem different! i realise that he won't hold my hand all the times again, he not always say that words to me again...so i hope i can found it back soon!

yesterday is my very 1st time cook the chicken ham for him! hahahahha, i think the food not bad loh~ im soosoo leh! sure can do it well ^^ hahahaha~i feel happiness when he beside me...every thing also make me feel happy~ moreover, i want to thx his mother buy the shirt for me! suddently have many cloths to wear~ woohoo!!!

i will try my best and do my best to maintain this relatioship....dar dar say, i have think about break up before...actually i also but if really want to break ..i really cannot do it and cannot accept....becoz we couple so long..and i put a lot of effort in thins srealtionship...how can let it so easy to break?

i dunnno what dar dar thnking now...but i hope you wont really want to break or think again~ i remember we promise that...want to celebrate many Anniversary!

my heart sick

actually i suppose to be happy today....becoz the IEP friends ..they so kind and funny! and the staff over there give me some presents so that i think i feel happy when together with them...somemore, they treat us pizza!

i feel like want to share with my zz...i want to share the happy with him! i want tell him the things...but before i tell him all the story he say some thing to hurt me....

oh Gosh, my hurt sick sia.....how to cure? no any medicine can cure it....only he can cure ....i dunno why he can change so fast! sunday still is my dearest zz...still so gentlement to me...but today it seems like is another person!
what happen!? izit have another take away my position? wat happen..it so suddently!

i dunno what to do...other than write in out...i already sit in front of pc 1 hr ago...and keep crying....besides crying..still is crying......

this 1 week...everyday i was crying...untill today i tot will be better....but still crying..haiz, my eyes going to swollen liao....

:(

i hope i will not back to the day before...the day i being betray....it sucks!i dun want back to before ... i tot i already found my happiness...i dun want back to 7 years before...No...i really dun want!

last day at clinic!

woohoo~ today wear formal shirt and become a very small nurse~hahaha~ this is my very 1st time working together with IEP friends~ we all are very enjoy~ and the doctors are very funny!! one of the doctor he wear too "fashion", one of the doctor wear too "outdate"...and one of the doctor she talking with me will very close to me~~~hahahhaa...i alomst cannot respond to her...everytime need 1 minutes ago jz can make respond to her >< becoz she so close to me~holding my hand and talking with me~

i feel like all the doctors have different style ..and the the style are very weird! hahahhha...but they make me feel it is a Fun clinic~~~and the stuff over there are very warm, very take care all of us~ we can play and keep taking photo together~ i will miss u guys~~ LILY,MEI YOKE...some of the name can't remember...but i remember ur look~

today also have a lot of snack to eat~ all are expensive one~~~oh.....enjoy~



this is my look in the clinic, my hair got a bit messy xD

i very scare after i know something ...

pls dun take away all the things i like the most!
my grandma...my bf.....

i dunno what to do.....

i dun get ur concern when i 1st day of sick...

recently many people also sick including me...omg...i not feeling very very suffering ...the most suffering part is...i never get your any concern....it make me more suffering.....ya,really....i never cry since we argue for the 1st 2 week...but now i really cry...hahaha...finally can cry out...maybe when i sick is the moment of the most weakness period....

maybe im silly...like this also can cry...but i already try my best become tough but still fail...

2 weeks ago, i never find me and want to talk to me...i start feel that u are not really concern about me edi...before, u can very worry me ...even i did not reply u , u straigh away call me and find me or u find my closer friend i order to find me...

but now...i think u wont like before already right? becoz u think im a tough girl :)
never mind....but...u must take care urself ok? i not dare post the concern on you status...i think maybe u dun like this kind of concern anymore...you no need my concern anymore...haha....even you feel annoying if i send to you....

today at workplace a girl suddently ask my sir's name ..she make me stuck for a couple of secondsc xD she even know my dad's nama and where he work! the 1st moment i though she is a stalker and stalk me all the way!!! when she found me, her expressin very happy and holding her phone talk with her mon , said SHE FOUND ME !!! hahahahhaha....can u imagine that, my face a lot of questions mark !!! who the hell is tis girl!!!??? hahahaha...finally i know that my dad and her mom are peer....but she looking for me , she want to know me and her mom talk about me also ==' hahaha...i seems like is a small super star sia ~~~

the IEP i join is around more than 1 months ago, i feel very happy and lucky i can have a lot of crazy freinds!!! they really crazy! everyday we have things to laught..is is excellent when work together with them! tomorrow is my very 1st time go to clinic and work, i have a little bite nervous !!! becoz i dunno how i should work ...i think quite a lot of things i need to learn :) hey, just learning ~ its fun!!!


recently have sad mood...still quarrel with dar dar.... this time, it take longer time to quarrel! haiz....dar dar, im not angry that u say u want go find a new gf i jz angry....im jz too angry and then anyhow link it together and burst it out.....actually i really piss off that when we webcame but u focus on ur TV!!!! may it jz nothing important to you when u showing this attitude..but i very care about it!!! becoz we can't always have chance to chat on msn ..so i really really cherish the moment when u online and chat with me! when these things happened..it give me confidence, becoz it remind me ...i still have a lover still remember me still take me as important inside your heart! i will feel more confidence for this relationship....so,webcame and msn with you is not just want to in touch with you, it also give me confidence couple with especially when i was stayed at SG....

dar dar, i also don't mind that you watching TV...but when you want watch TV just focus it , ok? i don't mind u jz only msn with me ..as long as we are happy in chating then i satisfied already...but you know that day ur attitude really make me very angry....

i dont't like that you open webcame but you keep focus to watch your show! if like this why not you just dun open it and just msn with me? you know how i feel uncomfortable when u do that? maybe you dun think that it will make ppl feel uncomfortable and it is nothing...but im not you.....i will feel uncomfortable..i will feel im not in ur eyes already...i feel dun have confidence.....i very care about ur eyes contact :( i very worry there have some changing on you and i lose you....

i hope u can know if you alreeady come back to my blog.......when you come back here again? Jack...

yummy~~~ today is my 1st time enjoy buffer at singapore!!!OMG, Parkroyal Hotel(4 star hotel)!!! the food damn nice wor!!! i eat until very tight!!!! have shushi, bbq,desert also!!! soooo lucky can enjoy the free buffer!hahaha, wait me upload those yummy food ya!!!



ummmm...couple with zz already 15 months ago..but now i become no confidence compare with before...today when we webcame, u just glue to TV, not really look at me...izit i not pretty enough :(...i very care ur every action and the words u did and said to me...every single words....anywhere,i really piss off of you today....this weeki din back to hometown and today is only the day and chance to online msn..but ....why u keep watch ur TV, long time no see u edi..jz let me see ur handsome face also cannot meh? haiz.....and how long u never come and read my blog already??? :/

i buy a WACTH!!!!

HAHAHAHAHHA!!!! AM I DREAMING ???? AM I??? such this question i already ask myself a lot of times~~~ why? because i can't believe that i really willing to spend $45 to buy a special design of the watch!!!

how it special? it is hand make design watch and for each design only have one!!! all of the design i like very much!!! i even cannot decided which design i should buy!!! because most of the design are very nice!!! for example gt heart shape, a girl, tree , shushi...and many...all are in 3D by using roll paper and pretty small, so that there is challenge when design the watch~~~

i almost spend more than 10 minutes stand in front of the watch because i do not know which one should i buy and i don want regret anymore!!! because this is my 1st time to spend my very 1st salary at singapore!!! and buy the 1st watch which i 1st time so crazy about it!!!! all of the 1st time are occur in once ^^

anyway, after sher lyn's suggestion i finally buy the one~~~wakakakakaka~~~ i wait for after salary come out i just wear it, it will become a very + super + extremerly meaningful watch for my life because i never have such experience so crazy about a WATCH!!!

so long never meet my zz edi...i so miss him... we are so busy to our work~haiz...but never mind...April is coming soon :) we will meet again and go dating!!! dar dar want sabar ya......i love u!!!

recently i prefer to like watching anime...like beelzebub,hahaha..this anime very funny!!!! other is ...reborn and fairy tail, i jz start to watch this~~hahaha....enjoy the time to watch anime ^^ woohoo!!!

almost faint in train =='

lol...today is my first experinece too faint!!!!!!!!hahahahhaha~~~
how to say? hmm.....is fantastic~~ because before at home have mom prepare breakfast even thought almost late also can eat something..

however, this time different liao T.T because of i never eat breakfast + running so that used up lot of energy....hence when i in the train...the things i see are totally black!!! and i can't hear any sound ><' i think my lips also totally become white !!!!
wakakaka...my 1st experience for almost faint in the train xD but lucky i still knowing where am i and what should i do!!!! i take out my lemon juice and drink it....so i can have some sugar and my cell won't lack of oxygen again ~~~

haiz....so hope my zz beside me when i faint~~~so that i can totally faint and lying into him!!!!hahahahahahaha~~~ sure is comfortable sia....this is what i think after i turn back to normal XD~~~

almost faint in train =='

lol...today is my first experinece too faint!!!!!!!!hahahahhaha~~~
how to say? hmm.....is fantacy~~

happy birthday for ziying 2011~~

zi ying seems like very like the surprise and the cheese cake made by her bf ho~~~
i can see that she so happiness~~hahahhaa.....want always like this ya!!!

i also feel happy can meet x.dad, nene and zi ying also!!! we long time no meet edi ma.....hahahah...i feel funny to hao lian darling jack in front of them..aiyo, we long time no see edi...let me hao lian hao lian a while ya~~~

hahahha, i hope we still can meet for next time!!!
and hope that all of us is still happiness~~~

ah jack, feel shy or not when i told u i hao lian how good u are??? xixixixixi

29 jan

thank for dar dar help me celebrate my birthday!!! it is the very 1st time have boyfriend help me celebrate together with me ^^ my dream come true~ dar dar treat me ear a lot a lot yummy foos~~ touching sia ~~ woohoo....i love u~ i know u already try your best to instead my friends~ hahahhaa....i very happy...i feel happiness~~ it will be a very different birthday for 19 age birthday!!!

but i still hope that i still have chance to celebrate together with zz and my best friends too~~~

HAPPY birhtday to soosoo!!!

1st anniversary!!!!

oh yeah!!! dar dar, we couple 1 years edi!!!! woohooo!!! thx for u celebrate togehter with me!! hahahha, the feeling is...we are stil like the 1st time of dating~it so sweet~~~ dar dar treat me so good and thx for ur vitamin C, i think my skin will be better~ because that is love of vitamin C ^^

today also is the 1st time we take the photo at CS, i like all 3 photos ^^ and u say nxt anniversary we go and take again!!! i so hope so, and we are suppose to make some crazy poses right?
hahahahhahaha~~~ dear dear is so happiness because i have a very good boyfirend!!! never have any boyfriend really walk into my heart after i broke the heart at the 1st time...but dar dar really walk into my heart edi and i'll never let u walk out from my heart!!! hei hei~~~

dar dar, i also hope that i also let u feel happiness ^^ let keep the 1st anniversary as a very good moment for us!!! Hence, when we old edi have a lot of thing to recall ^^

have a long time no upload my blog edi~~anybody miss me?xD
the test and study thing make me become more and more stress....every day dreaming so wont have a nice sleep :(

my birthday is nearly!!!! and the most i happy and excited is my dar dar also will accompany me!!! hahahha....this is the 1st time a bf accompany my birthday...i wait for a long time ago.....always imagine that if i have bf how my birthday will look like? how the surprice or present my dar will give me ? or what things else he would do?and many ideas about this la ^^
anyway...i dun care whether have surprice or not...but if hae is so romantic la!!!
if not also never mind..as long as dar beside me!!!!

othr than that, this times i going to invide some of the friends we long time no meet!!! i hope that this times will become a good memories to us :) the zi ying ho....aiyo...cannot join again!!!! never join my birthday before loh!!!! you dun like me izit????huh?!