u see my result so scukssss!!!! the consequence never did homework properly~~~ congratulation me!!! damn slack for this 4 weeks...since we broken up ...seriously, without ur encourage i really become weaker and slack @.@ yuan lai i study also need you...hmmmm...you are already a part of my life!!! WTH~ but u are not my husband yet leh~~~

I proud that im so honest!!!

im so honest today!!! u know why? because i still never cheat you about my feeling i have~~~ at least i dare to say, i still love you! i still cannot forgot you!!!

but then i almost burst out to ask you is that possible to restart...but lucky i never ask...becoz the answer from you maybe hurt me again....i think i will never forgot you...becoz i cant forgot the memories we have!!!

haiz....T.T if i can rub away all the things about you i will be easy... sudden feel i so "zhuan yi" xD hahahahah~~

2 more days...we are already broke up 1 months...but then i still cannot dun want miss you!!! i even can dream about of you continueos 3 days!!! WTH....i think i really cannot forgot all the things...

actually u dunno what i did when i walking to school =='and i just realise that recently...actually when i walking to school i was thinking about our sweet sweet memories....that why i can feel happy for every morning walked to school...but then recently is feel sad for every morning...sometimes even don't have energy to walk and almost fall down >.< embarasing !!!

after we broke up it really have other boy boy woo me or fancy me...but then i cannot find the similiar zz among all of them..../.\ so sad... i hope i can meet zz 2 ~~
that people i can feel he really love me so much before...

Are you still coming here?

are u still remember me? how long u din come here anymore? i remember that the reason i want to create my blog is because of you...because i want to let you know something i would not or impossible direct to tell you ...but then...how about now? are u still coming here???

i also remember that..when u in NS, if u rest u will call me...especially when u using public phone to call me...i can feel that u are so miss me and concern me...
how about now? yaa, maybe u what also cant remember...

maybe you even cant remember what u done for me and i done for you before...maybe even u have photo also cant remember anymore....

so, are you going to abandon this blog? are you at least sometimes still want to come here? can you let me know ur answer???

start finding the Key

dar dar...today enjoy all the memories we have before...yaaa, i should not so greedy because what i have before is enough for me...i should feel happy that you treat me so good before, you use ur love to love me before.. and also you worry me~ all the happiness things i will keep into my deep deep mind and try to dun want recall after TODAY!

today have wedding show...forgive me i imagine that im wearing the wedding dress because of you :) just my imagination....

i know it might be suffer for me to start cleaning my heart...but i believe i can do it, because i already enjoy the dream you given me so i should WAKE UP now! like Cinderella~ xD hahahahhaha

hope we can be best friend...any problem u maybe can find me again, like the way u care about me also ^^

it still lucky babe, because we are break up in peace!!!! not so many couple can be like this right?

yeap...soosoo...u are a LUCKY girl!!! now the task is to find the key and open my heart let you move out >.< so i can clean my house~ clean the dush in my heart!!!!
but..you always is my NO.1 dar dar and babe....never change.......

impossible or possible!!??

we are possible or impossible to couple back? you say..it don't have a correct answer...

so i should make a decisous with my own! i should not like this already because one day you will have new gf also...i need to find the key to open my heart and let u go out from my heart! yes, i will try my hard to find the key and open the door!!!

u treat me really like a freind...you 1st time ask me go lim teh....this question make me really realise that before we are couple and now we just a freind.....a very good lim teh invitation, babe...

today my cousin come and discuss about wedding things...only my brain thinking about what if we also going to marry? what if you suddenly appear in front of me? yaaa...i know all these are impossible...i just haven awake ><'

why when i start to rely on you but you start to leave me away? i need to learn back how to live my own for every single day! i need to ...keep all our memories and clean up the heart you broke ....

it is my 2nd time heart break...but is better this time...at least you still so gentlemen to me ..i feel la /.\

soosoo: wake up now!

all are because i think too much?

u allow me to continue call u dar dar ..honey..
u allow me to text message for you when i miss ...
u allow me to have ur new picture to miss you...

ur a little bit concern or worry will make me think maybe we still have chance...
ur little humour to me make feel we still have future...
ur kiss and hug make me feel like u still love me....

yeah...because i still love you so i will think too much that we still have chance to couple back...maybe i too sensitive..maybe i too stupid...maybe i so thick face...maybe i....not really want to face the truth we have now!

ur gentle make me not willing to find the nxt guy...because u always are the BEST in my deep deep heart....when i should wake up? or ..i no need to wake up FOREVER?
i keep dream about you recently...is about how we meet and dating together...i so hope i will not wake from this dream forever...

yes, this is the way how stupid I am...should i waiting for a CHANCE????

i dream you again...

hey....darling...you come to my dream again...in the dream u seems like just come back from certain place and the 1st people u want to meet is me :) in the dream, we still like couple, we chat a lot...i feel comfortable ..i feel ur love in the dream...this time i din shock untill wake up edi...hahahahaha...this time is i hope i wont't wake up from that dream FOREVER....at least you still love me in the dream...

if now we still couple...i think u are the 1st person i will sms you to say "I'm Back,got miss me?"
if now we still couple...i think we are chating now...

if now we still couple...i think i will text messege to you when concern about you...
if now we still couple...i think i will ask you wait for me because i need to bath...

if now we still couple...i think i still can get a hug hug from you...
if now we still couple...i think i no need remember that when i mention you need to add a "ex" in front of boyfriend because i always forgot to add "ex"....

if now we still couple...i think i can continue to see one of my freind i meet today her happy expression and to say: we already couple so long...so nice! keep continue it~

Today I....

today i eat chicken rice.....it make me remind of you
today i went to the sport complex and beside is gym...make me imagine ur look during gyming...

today i very late jz dare to open FB...because i worry i too miss you...
today i very hard working to make myself very busy and very late just went home...
today i...change my msn's name as WHITE...because u are BLACK...

today i...imagine a picture if u able to come back to my side again
today i thinking that i will change my temper if u still love me...

today i go take a look of ur profile...u are living in a world without me anymore...
today i...have no energy to truly smile again!

3rd day break up...

a lot of things make me remind of YOU...especially food....i think becoz before we always eat eat eat and we have many sameness to the food xD

i feel comfortable and slighly happy becoz...u give me a little bit gentle to me last nite...i know that is not called LOVE....but it enough for me :) i feel better....somemore u say my name's in ur contact list still is DEAR..i feel happy also...becoz at least u are not totally going to forget me....i hope...at least still can maintain like this..if we cant couple back anymore!